Have you ever...

Have you ever felt like you dunno who you are anymore?

especially when you are challenged for being who you are, for what you believed that you believe in and value for most of your life?

and that because of who you are and the way you are, the consequences are such that even those around you get hurt in some way?

and because of that, you question yourself on who you are and you wonder if it really is about YOU being what they say you are - emotionless...

I don't know if I have found the answer...

but I think I can say that I have moved on... perhaps grown a bit stronger...

but I just somehow feel that in moving on and beyond the experience and the feelings, I have lost some part of myself... or is just a mechanism for escaping, that the best way to move on is to become more emotionless so that it doesn't hurt anymore in that way? and in moving on, one would chose to move on from other stuff as well...

why the mellow posting you ask...

I don't know either.. haha