Sorry seems to be the hardest word.. really??

sorry seems the hardest word.. yeah that's the title of this song by Elton John and boyband Blue.. not that this post has anything to do with that song.. it's just a better way of catching your attention.. especially if you happen to be the type who enjoys reading about how people slam boybands and boy-lovers =) but I shall leave my thoughts on that to some other time..

so back to my actual thoughts... you know how it is people always seem to think that it's so hard to say sorry? at the moment i can already think of this song by Chicago called "hard to say i'm sorry".. from the kind of propaganda this concept is getting, you'll think "sorry" is the hardest thing to say after "I love you".. and I'm sure there is some truth in the concept, especially when refering to some thick-skinned individuals, which (trust me) are in abundance around us.

But strangely enough, I've been hearing a lot of Sorrys these days. For example, "I would like to go but got something on that day.. Sorry!" or "I'm sorry but I'm really busy so I can't help you"... well the list goes on, I'm sure you have a couple of phrases you can add on yourself..

When you think about, yeah they all sound pretty legitimate, no issue etc etc.. but I see an issue here.. why do people say sorry, yet do not offer an alternative to "make up" for it? if I were in a team working on something, and due to my other commitments I am unable to devote fully to the project, yes I apologise for my lack of participation.. and I apologise, because I feel a tinge of remorse, or guilt that I cannot do as much as I am supposed to. So to appease this guilt/remorse, shouldn't it be that I offer my help in something else? or during a certain time where I am more available?

hahah.. certainly sounds like I'm bitching about something right? well I can assure you that I have no such intention in mind. After all, I must confess that I do make the above-mentioned mistake" myself: apologise but don't make up for it.. sometimes it seems so much easier to brush things aside after they are over.. and besides, this is so widely practised that more often than not, we just take things as they are; we just accept this concept..

so what should we do? Accept it I guess.. but personally, I hope I won't subscribe to or practice this concept too much.. I want to say Sorry, and act upon the situation so that I won't be sorry all the way..

oh and one last thing.. maybe we shud consider changing the phrase "Sorry seems to be the hardest word".. for all we know, it's exactly because people think saying Sorry is hard enough that no action comes after that.. something like "Oh I've accomplished something by saying Sorry, so that's quite enough.. I mean, saying Sorry isn't easy you know?"

think about it... next time you hear someone say "Sorry", or when you yourself say "Sorry"...

About blogging and sleeping

hmmm.. I never thought this day would come.. the day i start writing my first proper blog entry.. I've never been much of a blogger.. the thoughts just fly in and out of my head.. and most of the time when they start flying in the computer is nowhere nearby.. now is that a wastage of thoughts or is that a wastage of thoughts? Man if "a penny for your thoughts" was true, i must have thrown quite a fortune down the drain.. ok so that's lame.. but who cares? u guys know what a thoughtful person I am =)

been awfully sleepy these days.. managed to get off the coffee dependency (yeah I dun drink at least 1 cup per day now) but the consequences of kicking that seems quite dire.. now i fall asleep during lectures without even knowing.. ok so u say that sounds funny and sounds like something u do all the time (dun pretend.. i know u're thinking that)..

well I think this is a different kind of falling asleep.. see usually when i'm in lecture, i'm aware that i'm sleepy.. it's the kind of drowsiness where u distinctly feel your eyelids getting heavier and heavier.. and the lecturer's voice gets more and more distant from u.. yeah tat's normal sleepiness.. i fight it for a while, but like Garfield says "Why fight a friend?" hahaha

but back to sleepy.. this new sleepy.. it strikes without warning man.. one moment i'm listening to the lecturer talk about buoyancy or vectors or matrices and the next moment i realise that he's gone through a whole section already without me realising it.. ok that sounds paradoxical.. but hell u know what i mean =) lethal i'll say.. strikes without warning.. must be a warning that I should sleep more these days.. i wonder if that would help.. after all, all my classes this sem start at 8.30 am. And being the not-very-morning person that i am, the difference is probably not too significant.. hmmmm

ah well.. no point thinking too much into that i suppose.. i can always seek comfort in the fact that lots of people sleep during lectures anyway.. sigh.. isn't that just so comforting and blissful?

duh...