Friday, December 29, 2006

Some of my favourite group photos of 2006



AIESEC Singapore NLDS 2006
December 2006














International Congress 2006, Poland
August 2006











International Congress 2006, Poland
August 2006










AIESEC Singapore MC Planning Weekend
June 2006
















International Presidents Meeting 2006, The Netherlands
February 2006

Pre Christmas Gatherings

I think this is the first year my pre Christmas days were so full...

1st, there was the pre-christmas party on 23rd Dec... yeah we counted down to Christmas eve... haha... it was an AIESEC gathering, small crowd and cosy potluck... lots of great conversations... and a great sharing session... you know... when you first join AIESEC, you talk to a lot of people but rarely do you get to really TALK to people about themselves and yourself.... so I'm really glad for the opportunity to do just that with the bunch of cool people... I don't really know how to describe that experience, but I am thankful to be able to know all of you much better, and also know myself even better... and I hope you managed to know me better despite me being not that super expressive... hahaha... that gathering was amusing also, because most of us only woke up at 12 noon... (only because some of us stayed up to chat till 8am.. so yeah imagine how much sharing there was)

anyhow, that was Christmas eve already and I got back in time to shower, check my email and head off for another gathering with my Junior College classmates for our annual gathering (I think this is the 5th or 6th year we have been doing this)... so that was another great gathering, considering I haven't seen most of them in half a year... and as expected, lots of updating, lots of gossiping, lots of talking nonsense, lots of chicken wings... AND another night of very little sleep! I think I slept for 2 hours while the rest totally didn't sleep... congratulations to the 10 mangoes for that achievement (and for not playing or mentioning Bridge at all)...

Although there wasn't much chance for sleeping in those 2 days, I thought it was entirely worth it... I find that I really value such occasions to be able to sit with people who you care about and who care about you and just share about anything that comes to mind... cos it's only with such sessions that we break that barrier between us and those around us, and really start the process of connecting as individuals..

I think somehow, we don't do that enough in life... the usual reason (or excuse) is that we are too busy I suppose... but a good chat doesn't need to take hours... it can take minutes, it can be virtual or physical... and it does such wonders in breaking that monotony of usual everyday routine and brightening up our days simply by allowing for that connection with another human being...

and you know what... that's what makes me feel alive, and grateful for being alive...

Absence from blogging scene

Haven't been blogging for a while... but that's not so much due to the fact that there's nothing to blog about...

well first it was the recovery from NLDS... that took a while... you can see from the previous entry that the reflections post only came out on December 17th...

and then I made a switch from Blogger to Blogger Beta and found that there was some error which didn't allow me to publish on to my nomadlife server... now that got me quite irritated for a while and left not much motivation to blog until a solution was found...

but now... a solution has been found! Thanks to Devrim and Dody for their help, I'm back to blogging real-time! (i.e. my entries get published right after I click the Publish button) hehe...

much has happened since Dec 17... including some random stayovers, random Christmas shopping with friends, a fantastic AIESEC Christmas gathering on 23rd Dec, a fantastic Junior College gathering on 24th Dec, a so-so Christmas, an airport send-off for a friend on 26th Dec, a wedding dinner on 28th Dec... and many decisions made in the periods between...

guess i'll blog about whatever I feel like blogging about when I feel like it.. prob a summary posting.. hehe..

Sunday, December 17, 2006

Reflection on the past 2 weeks

It's hard to believe that we're already halfway through December and that 2006 is coming to an end... time really flies... especially with so much happening in the past 2 weeks: NLDS 2006!

I have to admit that I am still in a daze from the conference... so much happened... before the conference itself and during the conference itself... and with all that, I find it so hard to put down here my exact thoughts and feelings on everything...

what can I say? It was all in all a most amazing and humbling experience... A 1st for many things...

Good spread of speakers from different backgrounds at Developing Leaders Day... 1st time with this much external involvement

Simple but impactful programme at Gala Dinner where we celebrated our successes... 1st time with an official acknowledgement of AIESEC Singapore's collaboration with an external organisation (PAYM)...

Carefully planned flow of sessions, with a mix of delivering skills and @ knowledge
Good mix of sessions that encourage dialogue and sharing... 1st time with such diversity of delegates from countries, nationalities and backgrounds (50 international delegates!! another 1st!)

Superb hype over @ dances.. reviving the roll call and dancing culture... ubercool Faci Dance... 1st time in a while to see delegates and members ask for more dances...

Engagement and focus on addressing the issues in the world... 1st time with an Issue Based XP day, candid discussions and sharing on problems in the world... great energy and effort to come in as socially responsible and empowered @ers ready to make a difference...

A great hands-on practical session on marketing and bringing together all skills and knowledge from previous days... delegates marketed, networked, made partnerships, raised traineeships, learnt loads and had fun... a delegate from Taiwan who was so shy to speak at the meeting with the faci/company went in front of plenary and made a speech in English...
facilitators were impressed beyond words...

A most touching closing plenary.. with almost everyone shedding tears... hugs and love going around... everyone knowing that somehow they have grown as individuals after 4 days of NLDS... knowing that they have had a glimpse into the amazing diversity and network of @... knowing that we can make a difference in the lives of people around us... knowing that Everyday Starts Today...

An insight into the power of the human spirit... Singaporeans staying around Taiwanese delegates to help in translation if needed... delegates from Taiwan and Mainland China getting along and discussing about their countries... SIPO members from Indonesia helping delegates from Indonesia... facis and delegates speaking slower to make sure everyone can follow... international delegates having group huddles to capture their learnings... SIPO EBs stepping in to facilitate discussions without prior notice... delegates learning phrases in each other's languages... delegates walking around with translation dictionaries, so eager to learn and share and question...

All along in AIESEC, we talk about becoming change agents... sometimes along the way we get confused, demotivated, disillusioned.. where is the change? where is the impact? we question ourselves and we start to doubt...

I do not deny that at some points in my AIESEC life these 4 years, I have had my doubts... but I always come out sure again... and even more charged to go on...

Why?

Because if 100 delegates who have only been in AIESEC for 4 months on average,
who come from across more than 10 countries,
who come from different religions, beliefs and backgrounds,
who did not know each other ever beforehand,

can come together and at the end of 4 days,
become passionate youths who embrace diversity and yet celebrate uniqueness,
who are aware of the state of the world and are ready to bring in ideas and solutions,
who recognise that having fun is as much the process of learning,
who have such a level of self-awareness that they can approach others and say "Thank You for changing my life, thank you for the impact and experience"

Then I know for sure that these people will go far in life, in AIESEC... and that there will come a new generation of leaders who will bring that change and hope that the world needs...

Thursday, November 30, 2006

Two roads...

I was working on the application form for MC 0708 and decided to browse through some applications from the other countries...

and found this very apt poem in one of the applications for MCP...

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveller, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;


Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less travelled by,
And that has made all the difference.”


Robert Frost - Mountain Interval. 1920.


How appropriate...

Wednesday, November 29, 2006

here we go...

and so another mad rush comes along...

guess I'm used to it...

but job satisfaction aside, I can't deny that it does get me tired physically and mentally at the end of the day...

but that's just part of the challenge... =)

Monday, November 27, 2006

Forever for You by Daryl Hall

Does anyone know what love can cost?
To take you so high then leave you lost.
Is it a mystery that runs too deep for such a simple heart?
Can anyone stop the hands of time?
Put back the loving in your eyes?
Though it's his name I hear when you are sleeping, I'll pretend it's mine.

Chorus:
When they ask me how long I'm going to love you
If the road to my heart will always stay true,
I'll say forever, I'll say forever for you
When they ask will I stay right there beside you
And they don't see you and me the way that I do,
I'll say forever, I'll say forever for you
(you are forever .... you are forever)

All roses are rose, my hand remains
But the thorn will cut you just the same
I'm losing your love I know - so sad the feeling,
I can tell somebody's stealing, stealing away your heart.

I don't know if I should tell you
High livin' my heart, there's no room for another
If you leave me now, my heart would not recover...
You are forever, you are forever ... forever for you (repeat Chorus)


nice song... especially when played in the middle of the night on DJ-less radio...

Thursday, November 23, 2006

Last 5 exams of the final year of university

Taking my last paper for this semester next Tuesday...

As I'll be taking 4 modules next semester, that means the paper on Tuesday is the 5th last paper I will take in university (provided all goes well with the previous 5 I took in this month of course)

but anyhow... it's weird... final year in university...

didn't think we would get there so soon...

but it's been an interesting 3.5 years of university so far... and I am sure the last 0.5 year will be equally if not even more exciting and interesting...

here's to the future!!

Tuesday, November 21, 2006

Up and Up somemore...

Attention Attention!

if you don't already know, our GST (Government Service Tax) is going to increase from the current 5% to 7% come 2007...

you know what this means??????

It means we have to go shopping in December to get the stuff we need before the new tax rate sets in!!!

It's getting even more expensive living in Singapore...

Saturday, November 18, 2006

Maybe

Maybe I read too much into that simple line... but somehow...

makes one feel misunderstood...

and for some reason that hurts...

but...

blocking it out...

I am good at doing that...

One item cleared!

Went to watch a movie yesterday evening with Imran and Diana at Jurong Point... kind of a on-the-spur-of-the-moment thing but well... at least I cleared one item off the things-I-miss list i.e. watching a movie at the cinema

watched "Step Up"... typical dancing kind of show... street kid who's pro in hip-hop, break dancing and what not meets poised pretty girl who does ballet and contempory dance and what not... He met her cos he got caught vandalising the hall of the Maryland School of the Arts and had to serve community service in the school for the crime... anyhow, usual stuff like quitting and coming back, falling in love, pursuing your goals etc... and of course dancing... not too bad la.. but "Take the Lead" is definitely better for a show with dancing...

watching shows like that about dancing is cool...

Just makes me miss one thing even more... so much more really...

and that's wushu... hey it's not all about fighting ok? There's also the choreography, the coordination if you're doing a group or pair thing, the rhythm, getting the right music with the right beat and atmosphere, moving your body in a way that makes you feel free...

and speaking of body... I so need to start working out...

Thursday, November 16, 2006

I miss....

with the recent email threads / MSN conversations coming alive again, I find that I miss

- wushu, training, hui suo, the carpet, crappy and crazy wushu mates, jumping around, sprinting
- Council, council camp, Marche pig out sessions, crappy and crazy councillors
- AP randomness, AP sis and bros

I also miss
- going kayaking at the beach
- playing pool!!!!!
- watching a movie at the cinema
- sleepovers or chalets

So many things and people...

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

And so it has begun...

15 Nov - 9am to 11am - HW310 - Professional Communications
16 Nov - 9am to 11.30am - MP4A01 - Aerodynamics
17 Nov - 9am to 11.00am - MP4011 - Mechanical Systems Design and Analysis
21 Nov - 9am to 11.30 am - MP4A02 - Aircraft Structures
23 Nov - 1pm to 3pm - CS815 - World of the Web
28 Nov - 9am to 11.30am - MP4005 - Fluid Dynamics


1st paper done... and what a fun paper it was..

1st question was on cultural differences
2nd question was on answering an interview question
3rd question was on drafting an email on a buddy system after being hired...

and the most amusing thing? It's linked to Koreans...

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

Emotional Roller Coaster

From Anger
to Disappointment
to Bewilderment
to Resignment
to Resolution
to Action

Hopefully...

to Hope
to Relief
to Peace

Monday, November 13, 2006

On firefighting...

I don't really like fire-fighting... because in most cases it means that there was no fire-prevention prior to the fire...

It's sad that before the fire, people easily think you are naggy or forget what you have reminded... and then just before a fire starts (or when a fire starts), you're called in... you have no choice but to fight the fire...

but at the same time, you have no choice but to feel disappointed too...

You know what... this means more measures to ensure such things don't happen again in future...

Sunday, November 12, 2006

Funny quotes from Bosses

I notice that I always re-read the most number of Tin Tin comics, blog the most entries and watch a bit more television when the exams are near... I have no idea why...

anyway, found this very funny article from Mr Brown's site...

Dilbert quotes contest

A magazine recently ran a "Dilbert quotes" contest. They were looking for people to submit quotes from their real-life dilbert-type managers.

Here are the top ten finalists:

1. "As of tomorrow, employees will only be able to access the building using individual security cards. Pictures will be taken next Wednesday and employees will receive their cards in two weeks."
(This was the winning quote from Fred Dales, Microsoft Corp. in Redmond, WA)

2. "What I need is an exact list of specific unknown problems we might encounter."
(Lykes Lines Shipping)

3. "E-mail is not to be used to pass on information or data. It should be used only for company business."
(Accounting manager, Electric Boat Company)

4. "This project is so important, we can't let things that are more important interfere with it."
(Advertising/Marketing manager, United Parcel Service)

5. "Doing it right is no excuse for not meeting the schedule."
(Plant manager, Delco Corporation)

6. "No one will believe you solved this problem in one day! We've been working on it for months. Now, go act busy for a few weeks and I'll let you know when it's time to tell them."
(R&D supervisor, Minnesota Mining and Manufacturing/3M Corp.)

7. Quote from the Boss: "Teamwork is a lot of people doing what I say."
(Marketing executive, Citrix Corporation)

8. My sister passed away and her funeral was scheduled for Monday. When I told my Boss, he said she died on purpose so that I would have to miss work on the busiest day of the year. He then asked if we could change her burial to Friday. He said, "That would be better for me."
(Shipping executive, FTD Florists)

9. "We know that communication is a problem, but the company is not going to discuss it with the employees."
(Switching supervisor, AT&T Long Lines Division)

10. One day my Boss asked me to submit a status report to him concerning a project I was working on. I asked him if tomorrow would be soon enough. He said, "If I wanted it tomorrow, I would have waited until tomorrow to ask for it!"
(Hallmark Cards Executive)

via rx78ntx who got it via Inderjit Singh SOPS (whoever that is, heh)


Reminds me of my project for Professional Communication module.. We titled it "Boss-olgy - The Art of Handling your Boss"

What Famous Leader Are You?

Found this interesting test link on Alex's blog and gave it a go myself...

So I am....


What Famous Leader Are You?
personality tests by similarminds.com

Interesting stuff... hahaha...

Reminds me of Brodie's speech at Opening Plenary of International Congress 2005 in Agra, India. He was talking about Gandhi and about finding the salt of the earth...

but anyhow, with all due respect for Gandhi, but I don't wish to end up as thin as he is...

Friday, November 10, 2006

Have you listened to what your heart is saying?

It was not easy to do; in earlier times, his heart had always been ready to tell its story, but lately that wasn't true. There had been times when his heart spent hours telling of its sadness, and at other times it became so emotional over the desert sunrise that the boy had to hide his tears. His heart beat fastest when it spoke to the boy of treasure, and more slowly when the boy stared entranced at the endless horizons of the desert. But his heart was never quiet, even when the boy and the alchemist had fallen into silence.

"Why do we have to listen to our hearts?" the boy asked, when they had made camp that day.

"Because, wherever your heart is, that is where you'll find your treasure."

"But my heart is agitated," the boy said. "It has its dreams, it gets emotional, and it's become passionate over a woman of the desert. It asks things of me, and it keeps me from sleeping many nights, when I'm thinking about her."

"Well that's good. Your heart is alive. Keep listening to what it has to say."

______________________________________

"My heart is a traitor," the boy said to the alchemist, when they had paused to rest the horses. "It doesn't want me to go on."

"That makes sense," the alchemist answered. "Naturally it's afraid that in pursuing your dream, you might lose everything you've won."

"Well then, why should I listen to my heart?"

"Because you will never again be able to keep it quiet. Even if you pretend not to have heard what it tells you, it will always be there inside you, repeating to you what you're thinking about life and about the world."

"You mean I should listen, even if it's treasonous?"

"Treason is a blow that comes unexpectedly. If you know your heart well, it will never be able to do that to you. Because you'll know its dreams and wishes, and will know how to deal with them."

"You will never be able to escape from you heart. So it's better to listen to what it has to say. That way, you'll never have to fear an unanticipated blow."

______________________________________

"Why don't people's hearts tell them to continue to follow their dreams?" the boy asked the alchemist.

"Because that's what makes a heart suffer most, and hearts don't like to suffer."

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

Hurting...

It hurts when you know that the people you care about are hurting... regardless of how much they know how much you care...

and it hurts even more knowing that there is nothing I can do to help...

All I can do is to stand on the sidelines and cheer them on in my head and know that somehow someday they will pull through...

Monday, November 06, 2006

Nice song

I'm not a boy band person... but sometimes one cannot deny that the Backstreet Boys do churn out pretty nice songs...

I Still (Backstreet Boys)

Who are you now
Are you still the same
Oe did you change somehow
What do you do
At this very moment when I think of you

And when I'm looking back
How we were young and stupid
Do you remember that

No matter how I fight it, can't deny it
Just can't let you go

I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you

Now look at me
Instead of moving on, not refuse to see
That I keep coming back
yeah, I'm stuck in a moment
That wasn't meant to last

I've tried to fight it, can't deny it
You don't even know that

I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you

No, No...
I wish I could find you
Just like you found me, that I
Would never let you go

(need you, care about you)
Though everything's been said and done, yeah
I still feel you (I still feel you)
like I'm right beside you (Like I'm right here beside you)

But still no word from you

Interesting Singaporean Blogs

I have a few URLs in my Favourites folder which are blogs by locals that provide a very local perspective on things in Singapore mainly...

So here they are:

Rude Singaporeans (http://www.rudesingaporeans.blogspot.com/)
This blog showcases acts and photos of rudeness, ranging from inconsiderate drivers, selfish carparking, inconsiderate passengers on the MRT etc etc...
All postings are sent in by the average Singaporean on his/her travels in daily life...

Mr Wang Bakes Good Karma (http://commentarysingapore.blogspot.com/)
Mr Wang is a Singaporean lawyer who writes about current issues and his views on them. Definitely an interesting read... even comes with excerpts from The Straits Times...

Yawning Bread (http://www.yawningbread.org/)
Yawning Bread is a blog by a local guy who is gay and a gay activist. His articles range from expressing his thoughts on gay issues to his coverage of gay events to anything else not pertaining to the gay community as well.
He also includes things like interviews, historical references and educational materials on homosexuality, on the discrimination and fears they experience, on support groups in Singapore for gays and lesbians etc etc

So there you are... recommendations of the day...

Gives you a lot more insight on what Singaporeans see, think, act and feel like...

Friday, November 03, 2006

Essence of the night

It is now 2.30 am and I am still up...

Doing what you may wonder? Nothing work related that's for sure...

Enjoying the quiet of the night... have you ever noticed how noisy cars and vehicles are in the day? Compared to the night, we live in utter noisiness and loudness in the day...

Enjoying the music on the radio... no DJs, no advertisements... just music.. and very nice songs at that...

Enjoying observing my hamster... just disengaged his exercise wheel (gets a bit noisy and disturbs my mom) so I'm watching as he entertains himself and tries to find out why the wheel doesn't run anymore...

Enjoying time for myself.. just disengaging myself from work.. from studies.. from the feelings and the rush that flood over me in the day at times...

Did you ever read Tuesdays with Morrie by Mitch Albom? Morrie mentioned something about recognising the feelings and emotions by experiencing them fully... so that when it starts approaching again, you recognise it and then can disengage yourself from it... does that make sense to you? Go read the book if you want a better description than what I just offered.. =)

I like the nights.. especially when I am not yet so tired to be able to think and reflect and reminisce on some stuff...

but somethings... can't help but wonder if it will be even more enjoyable if there was someone to share this moment with... hahhaha

ponder ponder...

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

When you need a break...

Taking a break from work now and followed the link from a friend's blog to do this test... interesting... hahaha


You Are a Seeker Soul

You are on a quest for knowledge and life challenges.
You love to be curious and ask a ton of questions.
Since you know so much, you make for an interesting conversationalist.
Mentally alert, you can outwit almost anyone (and have fun doing it!).

Very introspective, you can be silently critical of others.
And your quiet nature makes it difficult for people to get to know you.
You see yourself as a philosopher, and you take everything philosophically.
Your main talent is expressing and communicating ideas.

Souls you are most compatible with: Hunter Soul and Visionary Soul
What Kind of Soul Are You?

I feel so philosophical now... hahaha... hmmmm

Funny stuff I have heard

"Is that a reservoir?"
- quoted from someone who was standing at the beach and looking at the Straits of Johor

Person A (in all seriousness): "Have you ever thought about dying?"
Person B (in equal seriousness): "My hair? It doesn't look nice like this?"

"One of the groups chose to conclude their presentation with the phrase 'I hope we have enlightened you...'
Does that mean we have been living in darkness until you presented your points?"
- quoted from my Professional Communications tutor

"Did you hear the story about the 3 wells? No? Well... well... well..."
- quoted from an LC NUS EB member

Girl A: I'm going on holiday this coming December. We're going skiiing!
Girl B: Wow that's so cool! Where are you going?
Girl A: I'm not too sure... I think it's North Korea...
Girl B: (thinks for a while) Isn't that the place with some weird president? Shouldn't it be South Korea?
Girl A: aiya something like that la... I know we're going skiing that's for sure
(This is part of the conversation I overheard in the canteen one day)

"I have to run now. I just got a call from a farmer. His sheep just fell into the lake and is shrinking at an alarming rate"
- quoted from Mathew Perry's character in Serving Sarah who was trying to get away before people realised he wasn't a real vet

ahhh.. ignorance.. it's interesting how it's so linked to humour...

Friday, October 27, 2006

The Little Things

It's the little things that we share
the love and joy that's in the air
the children's laughter everywhere
and all our favourite things...

Over the years
I've grown accustomed to your ways
and no matter where I be, it warms my heart
To know that you're always here for me...

lyrics from a song from my primary school days... strangely I only remember these 2 stanzas...

suddenly popped into my head... and somehow felt that I had to put this down...

"Famous" Quotes

We just had a great country visit by Ryan, our AP Director, and I can't help following in the footsteps of Mindy in quoting some of the interesting stuff I have heard in the 5 days that Ryan spent in Singapore...

p.s. I don't have that good a memory so this is reconstructed based on what I can remember =)

Ryan on Motivation:
As you move into different roles and take on more responsibilities, it is only right to expect that the highs and lows you experience will grow as well. So many people go into taking more responsibilities with the expectations that things will remain the same, that the lows won't go lower or that the highs won't go higher. But that's not going to happen.

The difference between any normal leader and the outstanding leader is that the outstanding leader is able to channel the energy from the low moments into a drive to aim for a high. Remember the high moments and the excitement and satisfaction you felt. And remember the low moments because that is where the challenge is, to pick ourselves and the people around us up, channel the energy into that fierce drive which will bring us to the high again.

Ryan on diversity of ideas and making decisions:
With so many diverse individuals on the team (not just in nationalities but also opinions, backgrounds, thoughts) it may seem hard to come to a consensus or make a decision that every single person is 100% satisfied with. Which is why we spend so much time getting our fundamentals right. Fundamentals such as the identity, the vision, the AIESEC Experience, the Brand Promise, being what is central to the organisation and what we do. And when we all have a clear consensus and understanding on the fundamentals, there is so much space and flexibility beyond for each individual to contribute. And of course, it takes that level of commitment to making the best decisions and delivering the best for the benefit of the organisation as a whole

Ryan on AIESEC and It's Up to You:
AIESEC is like sitting on a couch and watching television. If you don't like what you are seeing, you just have to make that decision, get out of that couch and make that change.

Ryan on some AIESEC stuff:
It's meant to be a tool, to be used as an indicator. It cannot be taken as a science, because sciences always have their flaws.

Ryan on AIESEC being global (which he quoted from Taco)
You know you're working in a global organisation when you turn on the television and what you watch on the news actually affects your work.

Ryan on Singapore:
(wiping sweat from his brow) Phew it's hot!
I'm looking for a satay stall

Thanks Ryan for all the sharing, the inputs and the advice!! All the best in the rest of your country visits and we look forward to seeing you back in Singapore again!!!

Thursday, October 19, 2006

Finally...

I finally got down to asking my mom what I have been meaning to ask for the past 3 weeks plus (gosh... has it been that long already?? It's so hard to keep track of time these days).. and the concerns are quite what I expected... so unfortunately, there can be no confirmed answer at this point... just more planning and sourcing for options...

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

Divine intervention...

Alas, all good and free things must come to an end...

the owner of the wireless network that I have been leeching from for the past year or so has probably finally figured out why his bitrates aren't that fast as he expected (cos laptop users from the estate are probably using his network)... now it's security enabled and I have to say bye bye to that... Sigh... I will miss the amazingly fast and ever present network called 'Raj'

and it doesn't help that my own router has died so basically I don't get very consistent internet at home anymore. Depends on whether other wireless networks are on (1 or 2 but the connection is really weak) and whether my bro is home (so I can plug in via cable directly to the modem, which is usually connected to the PC in the living room)

But I guess you can call it divine intervention... have so much stuff to clear this week and next, what with the school term coming to an end soon and all... but I've been distracted these days... so much on the mind, so much to do... so much that I no longer know what to think or do...

I feel like 1 confused and distracted individual...

Damn....

Thursday, October 12, 2006

Taking the time to ask yourself...

It suddenly occurred to me last night... What do I miss in the life I am leading now compared to anytime before this moment? Who are the people I miss? Will they know that I miss them?

It helps to ask such questions once in a while, just so we appreciate what we have, and appreciate what we had but don't have anymore...

Is it just me?

I attended a Round Table Discussion event this evening by Proctor & Gamble. They organise this every year to reach out to graduating students from my university. I wasn't too sure what to expect but the topic "Think Global, Act Local" did look interesting and the line up of speakers was very credible so I figured why not...

It was an ok session... most of the sharing by the speakers followed by panel Q&A was ok... people were mostly asking about P&G's marketing stragegies, surviving as a global company with so many brands and all that... not too bad, but I guess I just wasn't that impressed (considering how we've seen some REAL SUPER speakers at IC)

Anyway, the Q&A was followed by dinner (GOOD FOOD!) cum networking. So they had tables for different functions within P&G and 1 or 2 employees per table to speak with us undergraduates and address our questions... I think I kind of scared the guy at my table cos I was asking quite a lot of questions...

Is this your first job? Why did you leave the previous one for this job? Does your degree matter in what you do? What do you do? Does P&G provide trainings? Is it compulsory or how do they encourage employees to take these up? How diverse is the workforce in P&G? How does P&G get involved with the local communities (CSR)? Are there internal postings outside of Singapore? Are the operations handled by P&G or outsourced (since the guy was in logistics)?

And I wanted to ask the HR people stuff like how they build the learning culture in the company, how they see the youths of today being able to cope with a diverse and team based work environment, how they identify with their values (which are quite similar to those of AIESEC coincidentally).. but yeah the HR people went off before I could bombard them....

But anyhow, what I noticed was really the type of questions I asked VS what some of the other undergrads asked...

What are working hours like, what is the dress code to work, what is the salary range, how much do the grades matter, will there be training if we go into a function not related to our degree... And the "best" questions of the night came from this guy to the HR hiring manager for Product Supply: Some of the people gave us some tips about the application process. Does it really help if we look at the Purpose, Vision and Principles of the company? What do you look for in a resume? Should we answer the online test according to who we are or really aligned to the values which the company are looking for? Like do it just for the sake of impressing the company? (I suspect this was why the HR manager wanted to go off before I could ask her questions... If I were doing HR and someone asked me questions like this, I would be so not impressed...)

but anyhow, yeah the experience definitely got me thinking... what I ask and seek to find out does seem different... the rest or you even probably think I'm quite silly to not ask about salary and what experiences they look for in recruiting...

but anyhow, I think after this bit of reflecting, I realise that perhaps it is simply because I look for that diverse, dynamic, challenging learning environment more than the material perks a job can offer... and I think that well.. I am happy with what I am looking for =)

Monday, October 09, 2006

I will get there

This is a very meaningful song by Boyz II Men... for all those out there searching for answers, searching for a path, searching for direction... we'll find it... we will get there in the end...

Oh…oh…ah…
Hey…
Yeah… I've been wanderin' 'round in the dark
Been lost somewhere where no light could shine on my heart
I have known a pain so deep
But I know my faith will free me [Get there]
And I'll get through this [Get there]
I'll find my way again
So don't tell me that it's over
'Cause each step just gets me closer

(I will get there) I will get there
(I will get there) I will get there somehow
Cross that river (Cross that river)
Nothing's stoppin' me now
I will get through the night (Oh, yes, I will)
And make it through to the other side
(Get there) Get there
(Get there) Get there

I've been in these chains for so long
I'll break free and I'll be there where I belong
Hold my head up high, I'll stand tall
And I swear this time I won't fall [Get there]
I will do this [Get there]
No matter what it takes
'Cause I know no limitations
And I'll reach my destination, I will get there

I will get there (I will get there)
I will get there (Ooh) somehow (Somehow)
Cross that river (Cross that river)
Nothing's stoppin' me now
I will get through the night
And make it through to the other side (Ooh, get there)
Get there (Get there) Get there

Well, the night is cold and dark
But somewhere the sun is shining
And I'll feel it shine on me
I'll keep on tryin', I'll keep on tryin'

I will get there (I will get there)
I will get there somehow
Cross that river (Cross that river)
Nothing's stoppin' me now
I will get through the night
And make it through to the other side
Get there, get there

I will get there (I will get there)
I will get there somehow (Somehow)
Cross that river (I'll cross that river for you)
Nothing's stoppin' me now (Oh…whoa…I)
I will get through (Through) the night
And make it through to the other side (Oh…ho…oh…ho…)
(Get there) Get there
(Ooh, get there) Get there (Whoa…oh…)

I will get there (I will get there)
I will get there somehow (Somehow)
Cross that river (I'll cross it for your love)
Nothing's stoppin' me now (No matter what)
I will get through the night (I will get through the night)
And make it through to the other side
(Get there) Get there
(Ooh, get there) Get there Get there Oh…ho…oh…
I'll get there

Sunday, October 08, 2006

Emails...

After letting the emails in my outlook inbox accummulate past the 2000 figure (and this is just in the main inbox... it excludes all the rest within my sub-folders), I decided that a virtual spring cleaning was very much needed...

So I just spent the last hour or so clearing emails.. for now, I only have 1190 emails in the main inbox after much sorting and deleting... I will have to go through my sub-folders after this (since some emails I transferred from main to sub for classification sake)

anyway, in the midst of clearing the emails, I of course have to open some of these emails to see what the content is (email subject titles aren't that descriptive after all) and it was interesting to see how things and people have changed and moved along with time...

from emails congratulating the team on our appointment as MC 0607; to emails from the 0506 team discussing how to do transition to the 0607 team; to emails from the 0607 then-elects to each other (some of these emails start with "Dear LCP elects" hehe) asking about plans and ideas; to excited emails about the selection of our international MC; to excited emails of incoming trainees or successful events or meetings; to emails that sound so charged with emotion as people fight for what they believe in; to emails where the MC 0607 makes decisions after being updated on all possible scenarios; to crappy emails with content that you just can't help but smile at....

Looking back, it has been 9 months of journeying together as a team and what a remarkable 9 months it has been... what an amazing story it would be if we put down all that we have gone through in these 9 months...

Even the emails tell a story... and what a wonderful story it tells... it is a story about growth... growth of individuals, growth of the team, growth of our own legacy...

and I cannot wait to start clearing my email inbox again 6 months from now when the term 0607 is over... for then our story will be pretty much over...

then again, I think we will realise by then that it isn't that much of a story... well maybe a story for us... but all in all it's just another chapter in the book titled "AIESEC in Singapore"

Thursday, October 05, 2006

Meaningful words...

I found Dey's blog and found these really meaningful extracts, which Dey found from someone else's blog...

so... enjoy :)
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You can`t make someone love you
, all you can do is be someone who can be loved, the rest is up to the person to realize your worth. We spend too much time looking for the right person to love or finding fault with those we already love, when instead we should be perfecting the love we give.

Free your heart from hatret;
Free your mind from worries;
Live simply.

Give more.

Expect less.

My hope for you is that you will finally discover the happiness within you.

When you feel down because you didn`t get what you want, just sit tight and be happy, because I thought of something better to give you.
My friendship
.

It is like wine, it gets better as it grows older.

When something happens to you, good or bad, consider what it means.
There`s a purpose to life`s events, to teach you how to laugh more or not to cry too loud.

Extracts from a poem by Heinz Shalloff.

Monday, October 02, 2006

Have you ever...

have you ever closed your eyes after working on the laptop or reading your notes and tutorials for a long time, and felt literally the waves of tiredness wash over you?

I have, and I am always surprised when it happens...

have you ever lay down on your bed after a long day of meetings and work and felt the waves of tiredness wash over you?

I have, and sometimes I find that liberating...

have you ever closed your eyes and felt the wind blow in your face, and feel the waves of relaxation wash over you?

I have, and I love that feeling...

have you ever felt the wind blow away the waves of tiredness?

I have, and I remind myself to give thanks for the moment...

Life is made up of little moments...

Have you ever noticed?

You Raise Me Up...

"You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders
You raise me up... to more than I can be."
You Raise Me Up by Josh Groban

Be thankful if you have found that someone who has that effect and impact on you in your life...

Be proud of yourself if you are that someone in another person's life...

Friday, September 29, 2006

My Wish

Rascal Flatts is a good band...

hehe... been taking some time out to enjoy quite a bit of their music.. Love their songs!!

anyway... this is for everyone out there who cares and that I care for... I think I am rediscovering the joy of being able to shed off some layers of that thick outer shell... thanks guys... :)

My Wish
I hope the days come easy and the moments pass slow
And each road leads you where you want to go
And if you’re faced with the choice and you have to choose
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you
And if one door opens to another door closed
I hope you keep on walkin’ ‘til you find the window
If it’s cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile
But more than anything, more than anything

Chorus

My wish for you
Is that this life becomes all that you want it to
Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small
You never need to carry more than you can hold
And while you’re out there gettin’ where you’re gettin’ to
I hope you know somebody loves you
And wants the same things too
Yeah, this is my wish

I hope you never look back but you never forget
All the ones who love you
And the place you left
I hope you always forgive and you never regret
And you help somebody every chance you get
Oh, you find God’s grace in every mistake
And always give more than you take
But more than anything, yeah more than anything

This is my wish
I hope you know somebody loves you
May all your dreams stay big

Sunday, September 24, 2006

Engineering Materials

I remember in Year 2 or 3, one of the modules was talking about materials and the strength of materials. And I remember there was something called cyclic loading, which is especially common in testing components used in aeroplanes. The component is subjected to a load, say tensile stress, that increased from zero to a maximum value within a certain time, and then is decreased to zero again within a certain time. So the cycle is repeated many many times to investigate when failure will take place.

Some materials don't withstand cyclic loading too well. They fail quite soon into the cycles. Other materials are a lot better, either because of their natural properties or that they have been reinforced (by material or by structure)

I also remember that there is a method of strengthening some materials which is quite interesting. The material is subject to a load (i.e. stress or heat) and then after that relaxed. And because the load induced more stresses and stress lines within the materials, they eventually prevent further cracks or stress lines from propagating throughout the material. So by subjecting the material to an initial load and initial stresses, the material becomes stronger and can take even more load eventually. So it doesn't mean that initial stress and cracks will always lead to failure of the material; sometimes it makes the material a lot stronger.

I also remember that in crack propagation, while many cracks and stress lines in the materials can strengthen it, sometimes all it takes is just one crack in the material for absolute failure. One crack to start snacking its way through the internal structure, moving quickly through, inflicting simple and direct damage.

I never really liked the materials part of the engineering courses (I didn't take chemistry in Junior College) but one can't deny how relevant it is in the world today...

Sunday, September 17, 2006

Chilling out...

If you don't consciously think about it, you never realise how long you've known some of the people around you...

Took some time off yesterday afternoon to meet up with some of the wushu mates ... went for lunch at Wisma followed by a walk-walk around...

key discovery points of the day:
- We've known each other for like 6 years! Since 2001!! Gosh!
- You can never squish the crappiness out of people like us, no matter how old we are



- It feels so fulfilling to be with a group of Singaporeans and be able to have discussions around things like politics, children psychology (thanks to Kunz and his the BBC show "Child of our Time") and environmental issues (marine biologist VS cynical lawyer)
- the flower decorations along Orchard road is an OK move to impress the IMF delegates. But the decoration of trees with red and white polka dots is SO SO SO WRONG!

Anyhow, it was a good outing with good food, good people and good conversations...

Yes! I have a personal life after all! and a bunch of cool friends :)

Thursday, September 14, 2006

One Phone Call

It's amazing how much difference just one phone call can make in one's life...

just when everything was going in its usual routine, your phone starts ringing... thinking it's something work related again, you pick it up without really glancing at the number (not that it matters cos I didn't recognise the country code)

when you say "Hello?" this strangely familiar voice answers "Hello!" and a laugh... and you run through the database of names and voices in your head to try and place that... somehow it doesn't work so you ask "Who is this?"

and when you finally know who it is? Gosh that feeling!! It's like walking around on the streets and bumping into someone who means so much to you just like that!

I honestly felt so so so so happy at the moment I learnt who it was...

Thanks for calling! It was a great way for me to voice some of my thoughts, get some inputs and advice as well as to share from one friend to another =)

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

My IC 2006 Bring Back

Finally decided to take some time out to relax a bit.... I'm now alone at home with the radio on after a shower... and it only seems apt to take some time to think...

This IC 2006 has been an interesting experience, simply because it's like going there wearing a different set of glasses (not that I wear any but you get the point)... things really do take on a different perspective...

so I decided to put down some of the key points that have left an impression on me:

You can tell about people's personalities through the way they take photos
It's amusing how different people look for different things to take photos of. For me, most of my photos contain scenary, buildings, other people, everything except myself... You probably may not even guess that I've been to that country, simply because I hardly appear in my own photos. I look to capture things the way I see it, which is why I am behind the lens.
Yet some people take mainly photos of people; people are the foreground and the background is not that important. Perhaps I should learn from them and be more open about showing the/my relationships with those around me.

Diversity in AIESEC also means Diversity in communication
I love the diversity in AIESEC, not just because it presents so many perspectives on issues but simply because there is so much to learn from others in communication styles. Through the facilitators, the speeches, the conversations with the PAI and AI, the delegates, the chair, I can pick up so many tips on how to address crowds and capture their attention. I pick up pointers on how to bring messages across by using stories and by asking questions.

The impressive and irrepressible nature of the Human Spirit in everyone
At every international conference, I meet people who face the greatest of challenges back home in their AIESEC chapters. I meet people who face challenges at IC itself in being able to understand and communicate with other delegates. And what always impresses me is how these people simply never say die, how their passion drives them on so strongly. Everyone at IC is a hero or heroine in his or her own way and I salute them for that.

The Bonds that Bind
It's amazing how friendships made at a 10 day conference stay the same or become even stronger after a 6 months gap with hardly any online communication. Some may say that it isn't very possible to make very good friends in such a short time but to me, AIESEC is proof that it is possible. I think it stems from knowing how each of us are going back home to fight our own different battles, yet sub-consciously being aware that the battles aren't that different in essence after all. We may feel lonely, misunderstood, super challenged at times, but we can always seek solace in the network that is out there and in the bonds that bind.

for sure the sessions, the trainings and the content have left an impression on me... but let's face it.. life is transient, life is fragile...

More often than not, it's the softer and invisible things in life that speak the most to us, and stay with us for the longest time...

Monday, September 11, 2006

so much has happened...

So much has happened since the last blog posting...

Prep for IC, IC itself, prep for Jump Start, Jump Start itself, catching up with school work, family stuff...

Things always happen for a reason...

I'm blogging randomly it seems...

anyhow, I hope my voice is back by Wednesday night... I have an interview on Thursday morning!!

*sigh sigh*

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

Caught in the wave of things...

that's exactly how I feel like now...

the list of things to do doesn't seem to run short, it seems to add on to itself...

sometimes, I feel guilty that I would let myself get washed away in the wave of things... what happened to enjoying a slow leisurely walk, or a random chat with a friend... everyone's wrapped in their own little coccoon...

will be looking forward to Poland in few days time... at least a short break before the wave comes back...

Just wish I knew magic so I can pack at the speed of light...

and boy will I miss my hamster while I'm away...

Monday, August 07, 2006

Keeping the Dream Alive

From Freiheit's "Keeping the dream alive"

The hopes we had were much too high
Way out of reach but we had to try
No need to hide no need to run
'Cause all the answers come one by one
The game will never be over
Because we're keeping the dream alive


Hang in there, guys :)

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

The Giving Tree

I think at any point, we are meant to be both the tree and the boy...

So...

If you are the boy, have you found your tree?
If you say you haven't, have you searched hard enough for the opportunities?

If you are the Giving Tree, how much have you given?
And how much more can you give?


The Giving Tree by Shel Silverstein

Once there was a giving tree who loved a little boy.
And everyday the boy would come to play
Swinging from the branches, sleeping in the shade
Laughing all the summer’s hours away.
And so they love,
Oh, the tree was happy.
Oh, the tree was glad.

But soon the boy grew older and one day he came and said,
"Can you give me some money, tree, to buy something I’ve found?"
"I have no money," said the tree, "Just apples, twigs and leaves."
"But you can take my apples, boy, and sell them in the town."
And so he did and
Oh, the tree was happy.
Oh, the tree was glad.

But soon again the boy came back and he said to the tree,
"I’m now a man and I must have a house that’s all my home."
"I can’t give you a house" he said, "The forest is my house."
"But you may cut my branches off and build yourself a home"
And so he did.
Oh, the tree was happy.
Oh, the tree was glad.

And time went by and the boy came back with sadness in his eyes.
"My life has turned so cold," he says, "and I need sunny days."
"I’ve nothing but my trunk," he says, "But you can cut it down
And build yourself a boat and sail away."
And so he did and
Oh, the tree was happy.
Oh, the tree was glad.

And after years the boy came back, both of them were old.
"I really cannot help you if you ask for another gift."
"I’m nothing but an old stump now. I’m sorry but I’ve nothing more to give"
"I do not need very much now, just a quiet place to rest,"
The boy, he whispered, with a weary smile.
"Well", said the tree, "An old stump is still good for that."
"Come, boy", he said, "Sit down, sit down and rest a while."
And so he did and
Oh, the trees was happy.
Oh, the tree was glad.

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

You and Me by Lifehouse

I know posting song lyrics never is useful cos you can always google for them anywhere else... but I like this song...

You and Me
by Lifehouse

What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive

Monday, July 24, 2006

Out of balance...

my life is lacking balance and discipline!!

time to change that... tomorrow marks the start of whole new training regime...

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Tuesday, July 04, 2006

Tomorrow is 4th of July... and it's freaking hot!

Yes... tmr is Independence Day... Why do they call it independence when things are still being decided by someone who shares the same name as a piece of vegetation? ah well... i'm being crappy here...

sitting in the NTU AIESEC office... the air con has seriously died... when you turn it on, it rumbles and spews out air... well minute amounts of it... you can vaguely see the poster on the opposite wall flutter... strangely enough you can't sense any no matter where you stand and whatever whiffs of breath coming out of it isn't cold... anyway it's off now... opening the windows and the door has a much better effect on cooling the room...

must be the heat... feeling quite lethargic now... i wonder what the temperature is outside... i wish i could be at the beach... in a kayak out on the sea...

i wish i wish....

Sunday, June 25, 2006

Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.

'You've got to find what you love' Jobs says
Stanford Report, June 14, 2005

This is the text of the Commencement address by Steve Jobs, CEO of Apple Computer and of Pixar Animation Studios, delivered on June 12, 2005.

I am honored to be with you today at your commencement from one of the finest universities in the world. I never graduated from college. Truth be told, this is the closest I've ever gotten to a college graduation. Today I want to tell you three stories from my life. That's it. No big deal.

Just three stories.

The first story is about connecting the dots.

I dropped out of Reed College after the first 6 months, but then stayed around as a drop-in for another 18 months or so before I really quit. So why did I drop out?

It started before I was born. My biological mother was a young, unwed college graduate student, and she decided to put me up for adoption. She felt very strongly that I should be adopted by college graduates, so everything was all set for me to be adopted at birth by a lawyer and his wife. Except that when I popped out they decided at the last minute that they really wanted a girl. So my parents, who were on a waiting list, got a call in the middle of the night asking: "We have an unexpected baby boy; do you want him?" They said: "Of course." My biological mother later found out that my mother had never graduated from college and that my father had never graduated from high school. She refused to sign the final adoption papers. She only relented a few months later when my parents promised that I would someday go to college.
And 17 years later I did go to college. But I naively chose a college that was almost as expensive as Stanford, and all of my working-class parents' savings were being spent on my college tuition. After six months, I couldn't see the value in it. I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life and no idea how college was going to help me figure it out. And here I was spending all of the money my parents had saved their entire life. So I decided to drop out and trust that it would all work out OK. It was pretty scary at the time, but looking back it was one of the best decisions I ever made. The minute I dropped out I could stop taking the required classes that didn't interest me, and begin dropping in on the ones that looked interesting.

It wasn't all romantic. I didn't have a dorm room, so I slept on the floor in friends' rooms, I returned coke bottles for the 5¢ deposits to buy food with, and I would walk the 7 miles across town every Sunday night to get one good meal a week at the Hare Krishna temple. I loved it. And much of what I stumbled into by following my curiosity and intuition turned out to be priceless later on. Let me give you one example:

Reed College at that time offered perhaps the best calligraphy instruction in the country. Throughout the campus every poster, every label on every drawer, was beautifully hand calligraphed. Because I had dropped out and didn't have to take the normal classes, I decided to take a calligraphy class to learn how to do this. I learned about serif and san serif typefaces, about varying the amount of space between different letter combinations, about what makes great typography great. It was beautiful, historical, artistically subtle in a way that science can't capture, and I found it fascinating.

None of this had even a hope of any practical application in my life. But ten years later, when we were designing the first Macintosh computer, it all came back to me. And we designed it all into the Mac. It was the first computer with beautiful typography. If I had never dropped in on that single course in college, the Mac would have never had multiple typefaces or proportionally spaced fonts. And since Windows just copied the Mac, its likely that no personal computer would have them. If I had never dropped out, I would have never dropped in on this calligraphy class, and personal computers might not have the wonderful typography that they do. Of course it was impossible to connect the dots looking forward when I was in college. But it was very, very clear looking backwards ten years later.

Again, you can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.

My second story is about love and loss.

I was lucky — I found what I loved to do early in life. Woz and I started Apple in my parents garage when I was 20. We worked hard, and in 10 years Apple had grown from just the two of us in a garage into a $2 billion company with over 4000 employees. We had just released our finest creation — the Macintosh — a year earlier, and I had just turned 30. And then I got fired. How can you get fired from a company you started? Well, as Apple grew we hired someone who I thought was very talented to run the company with me, and for the first year or so things went well. But then our visions of the future began to diverge and eventually we had a falling out. When we did, our Board of Directors sided with him. So at 30 I was out. And very publicly out. What had been the focus of my entire adult life was gone, and it was devastating.

I really didn't know what to do for a few months. I felt that I had let the previous generation of entrepreneurs down - that I had dropped the baton as it was being passed to me. I met with David Packard and Bob Noyce and tried to apologize for screwing up so badly. I was a very public failure, and I even thought about running away from the valley. But something slowly began to dawn on me — I still loved what I did. The turn of events at Apple had not changed that one bit. I had been rejected, but I was still in love. And so I decided to start over.

I didn't see it then, but it turned out that getting fired from Apple was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. The heaviness of being successful was replaced by the lightness of being a beginner again, less sure about everything. It freed me to enter one of the most creative periods of my life.

During the next five years, I started a company named NeXT, another company named Pixar, and fell in love with an amazing woman who would become my wife. Pixar went on to create the worlds first computer animated feature film, Toy Story, and is now the most successful animation studio in the world. In a remarkable turn of events, Apple bought NeXT, I retuned to Apple, and the technology we developed at NeXT is at the heart of Apple's current renaissance. And Laurene and I have a wonderful family together.

I'm pretty sure none of this would have happened if I hadn't been fired from Apple. It was awful tasting medicine, but I guess the patient needed it. Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith. I'm convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You've got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don't settle.

My third story is about death.

When I was 17, I read a quote that went something like: "If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you'll most certainly be right." It made an impression on me, and since then, for the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: "If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?" And whenever the answer has been "No" for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something.

Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important tool I've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything — all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure - these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.

About a year ago I was diagnosed with cancer. I had a scan at 7:30 in the morning, and it clearly showed a tumor on my pancreas. I didn't even know what a pancreas was. The doctors told me this was almost certainly a type of cancer that is incurable, and that I should expect to live no longer than three to six months. My doctor advised me to go home and get my affairs in order, which is doctor's code for prepare to die. It means to try to tell your kids everything you thought you'd have the next 10 years to tell them in just a few months. It means to make sure everything is buttoned up so that it will be as easy as possible for your family. It means to say your goodbyes.

I lived with that diagnosis all day. Later that evening I had a biopsy, where they stuck an endoscope down my throat, through my stomach and into my intestines, put a needle into my pancreas and got a few cells from the tumor. I was sedated, but my wife, who was there, told me that when they viewed the cells under a microscope the doctors started crying because it turned out to be a very rare form of pancreatic cancer that is curable with surgery. I had the surgery and I'm fine now.

This was the closest I've been to facing death, and I hope its the closest I get for a few more decades. Having lived through it, I can now say this to you with a bit more certainty than when death was a useful but purely intellectual concept:

No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don't want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life's change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true.

Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

When I was young, there was an amazing publication called The Whole Earth Catalog, which was one of the bibles of my generation. It was created by a fellow named Stewart Brand not far from here in Menlo Park, and he brought it to life with his poetic touch. This was in the late 1960's, before personal computers and desktop publishing, so it was all made with typewriters, scissors, and polaroid cameras. It was sort of like Google in paperback form, 35 years before Google came along: it was idealistic, and overflowing with neat tools and great notions.

Stewart and his team put out several issues of The Whole Earth Catalog, and then when it had run its course, they put out a final issue. It was the mid-1970s, and I was your age. On the back cover of their final issue was a photograph of an early morning country road, the kind you might find yourself hitchhiking on if you were so adventurous. Beneath it were the words: "Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish." It was their farewell message as they signed off. Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish. And I have always wished that for myself. And now, as you graduate to begin anew, I wish that for you.

Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.

Thank you all very much.

Friday, June 23, 2006

These days...

remind me of a period of time in JC2 and again in the 1st Semester of Uni year 1...

both involve training for wushu competition (either Nationals or Inter-school) which was
- intense to say the least; trainings at least 4 days in a week for a few months
- a real challenge to push oneself to the limit; imagine waking up everyday with muscle aches and trying to finish assignments upon reaching home at 10 plus at night after training
- the one period of time I felt so tired while doing my routine I wanted to scream to keep myself going
- the one time I saw a friend actually crawl off the carpet after finishing her routine (that would be annabelle)
- when I cried at how helpless I felt in being unable to improve to where I wanted to be

Yet it was during that intense period where
- I enjoyed slices of watermelon with the team almost after every single training session
- I actually better understood how much I could push myself
- I looked and felt really fit (yes the training did pay off)
- The team bonded and grew more like a family than anything else
- I saw people grow and improve at a remarkable pace
- I saw how passion and discipline makes things happen
- I understood that sometimes, it's not the final results that matters... it's more of the process and the people that stand out
- I realised that the least I can do is help my junior team mate be as good as she could be, and eventually to be better than me

interestingly, history (or at least the lessons) are repeating themselves in how things move these days...

but anyway, I guess it is clear that to me, Wushu is more than just a sport. It is about values, team spirit, discipline, passion, pushing oneself to the limit.

It is a way of life and I would not be who I am or where I am today if not for it...

Saturday, June 17, 2006

Do you believe in horoscopes?

I never really believed the whole fuss about horoscope.. but I can't deny that at times it is quite funny and interesting...

found this on the net at http://www.astrology-online.com/cancer.htm

The Cancerian character is the least clear-cut of all those associated with the signs of the zodiac. It can range from the timid, dull, shy and withdrawn to the most brilliant, and famous Cancerians are to be found through the whole range of human activity. It is a fundamentally conservative and home-loving nature, appreciating the nest like quality of a secure base to which the male can retire when he needs a respite from the stresses of life, and in which the Cancerian woman can exercise her strong maternal instincts. The latter tends to like and to have a large family. `Nest like' is an appropriate adjective for the Cancerian home, for its inhabitants tend to favor the dark, mysterious but comfortable type of house which has something of the air of a den about it, a place which belongs to the family rather than existing as a showcase to impress visitors. That is not to say that the Cancerian is unsociable, just that for them there is a time to socialize and a time to be solitary, and this is part of the apparent contradiction in their nature. Outwardly they can appear formidable - thick-skinned, unemotional, uncompromising, obstinately tenacious, purposeful, energetic, shrewd, intuitive and wise, sometimes with a philosophical profundity of thought verging on inspiration. Their intimates, however, may see a very different character, one with a sympathetic and kindly sensitivity to other people, especially those they love. They are able to identify with the situations of others because of the keenness of their imaginations. They are often over-imaginative and prone to fantasy, sometimes trying to shape their lives to fit some romantic ideal. They are appreciative of art and literature, and especially of drama, where the spectacle and ebb and flow of action and feeling particularly excite them. They may themselves possess considerable literary, artistic or oratorical talent. Their sharp ears and talent for mimicry can sometimes give them success on the stage, though their tendency to be emotional may make them overact. Interestingly - because they give the impression of being down-to-earth - they are often fascinated by the occult and are more open to psychic influence than the average. If they can reconcile the personal conflict of their urge to be outgoing with the reserve that causes them to withdraw into themselves, then at best they can inspire a generation, especially the youthful part of it, by their idealism. A job in which they can express this, and in which they can do well, would be as a leader in a youth organization.

sounds like me???? hmmmm... food for thought....

Thursday, June 15, 2006

Push and Pull....

what I wouldn't give to be able to have a worry-less week, to be able to wake up feeling well-rested, to not be pondering over this and that...

yet... I wouldn't want to miss the chance to work with a team of cool people, to do my best at managing people and an organisation, to build skills and networks I know I definitely can't get outside of this...

push and pull... high tide and low tide... attraction and repulsion... winning and losing...

opposing feelings and thoughts exist to make us appreciate both sides of the situation...

who cares if the glass is half empty or hal full? Enjoy the water while it's there!

Monday, June 12, 2006

Leadership is about...

being self-less... a leader has a team to take care of and many times, the team's need comes above that of the leader...

knowing when to be protective... a leader who overly protects the team ends up with team members who aren't exposed to various stuff... the team needs space for them to explore, experience, meet adversity and thus grow... sometimes it "hurts" when they fall or meet set-backs and it is with discipline that a leader can stand by and let them proceed...

a quote from Angels and Demons by Dan Brown:
“So although you have the power to interfere and prevent your child’s pain, you would choose to show your love by letting him learn his own lessons?”
“Of course. Pain is part of growing up. It’s how we learn.”

reading the moods of the team and customising your style to their needs... everyone is different and unique... customised approaches should be better in bringing out the best in each person... (perhaps :))

hmmm... kind of in a reflective mood today....

Monday, June 05, 2006

Leaping Towards Excellence

Our Commitment to ourselves, what we aim to deliver and to all those around us...

but no leap can be as excellent as the one done with a team of cool fellow MCs...


* Missing Doreen and Adam in the Picture*

I had a great MC Consolidation Weekend... and I'm looking forward to even greater things in the months to come...

Thursday, May 25, 2006

My Hamster


My pet hamster... I've had him for almost a month (I think)... He doesn't have a name yet... I'm tempted to call him Nemo as he lives in a fish tank (minus the water and the fish of course)

He's cute and smart... I do believe he's starting to plan how he can escape the tank... smart little fellow...

Thursday, May 18, 2006

I'm alive...

Just dropping a note to indicate my presence... =)

been busy the last month with meetings and reports and planning... would have blogged but just got kind of lazy.. don't think the people who read this would be interesting in knowing what exactly I've been up to these days... hahaha... it would have been too technical for some of you...

anyway... have been thinking a bit these days about inner strength and support.... I think every day in our lives, we come across people who really impress us, who exemplify themselves like the role model we have been looking for... and they're like role models because we see in them something that we would like to have but don't quite have yet.. interestingly enough, strength is a quality that usually stands out, be it strength physically, mentally, in terms of discipline etc

Perhaps it is because of this that sometimes we tend to forget that these role models of ours are as human as we are, that they have their fears and worries and down moments... so I think that if we really see them as role models, if they are the people we want to be like, then it would naturally mean so much to us to be able to help or "be useful" to these people...

And the best way to do so is to thank them, to show our appreciation to them for being that model in our lives, for having it in themselves to be who they are today.... So this is a tribute to all the role models out there... if they're playing that crucial role in our lives, let's find our way of playing our role in their lives....

Role modeling is a powerful thing; and so is appreciation... when there is both conscious appreciation and role modeling, only then can we build a culture of excellence and self-improvements...

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

Family photo?

Just short of the 'baby' of the family! Adam is arriving in June!

Sunday, April 16, 2006

I am happy today!

I am happy today because I bought two new books:




blink by Malcolm Gladwell (http://www.gladwell.com/blink/index.html)






The World is Flat by Thomas L. Friedman (http://www.thomaslfriedman.com/worldisflat.htm)






Next on my list will be "The Tipping Point" by Malcolm Gladwell...

cheers to the wonderful books and authors in the world!

Saturday, April 15, 2006

I like the nights...

It is quite enjoyable to work late in the night or early in the morning (depending on how you see it.. some people consider it night at 2am simply because it's still dark)

but yeah it is enjoyable...

1. It's a cool temperature at night
2. It's quiet and peaceful
3. Most people are no longer on MSN to bug you
4. Most people are asleep or don't do phonecalls at such times so you get left alone
5. No DJ is on shift through the night so they play nice songs one after the other without DJs talking and with very few advertisements interupting

only problems are

1. If I get hungry, I can't cook something (cos it'll wake my mom) so there's only biscuits
2. If it rains, it gets freezing (by my standards)
3. I cant get replies to my SMSes and emails very soon when I work at such hours

You win some, You lose some...

Sunday, April 09, 2006

The Alchemist...

The Alchemist picked up a book that someone in the caravan had brought. Leafing through the pahes, he found a story about Narcissus.

The alchemist knew the legend of Narcissus, a youth who knelt daily beside a lake to contemplate his own beauty. He was so fascinated by himself that, one morning, he fell into the lake and drowned. At the spot where he fell, a flower was born, which was called the narcissus.

But this was not how the author of the book ended the story.

He said that when Narcissus died, the goddesses of the forest appeared and found the lake, which had been fresh water, transformed into a lake of salty tears.

"Why do you weep?" the goddesses asked.

"I weep for Narcissus," the lake replied.

"Ah, it is no surprise that you weep for Narcissus," they said, "for though we always pursued him in the forest, you alone could contemplate his beauty close at hand."

"But... was Narcissus beautiful?" the lake asked.

"Who better than you to know that?" the goddesses said in wonder. "After all, it was by your banks that he knelt each day to contemplate himself!"

The lake was silent for some time. Finally, it said:
"I weep for Narcissus, but I never noticed that Narcissus was beautiful. I weep because, each time he knelt beside my bank, I could see, in the depths of his eyes, my own beauty reflected."


The prologue from "The Alchemist" by Paulo Coelho, a book I have read many times and will never tire of reading again...

Tuesday, April 04, 2006

Tribute to the Master

Today's picture shall be a tribute to one of the greatest martial art masters the world has ever seen...

Sunday, April 02, 2006

Photo of today

I have decided to try and post a photo everyday. It really is a refreshing break to look through all the past photos that I have taken or been in..

so here is today's post: taken in the Netherlands. Thanks to Shamnoon for being the photographer!


Saturday, April 01, 2006

When will it be?


When will be the day when the sun comes out from behind that big piece of cloud?
I know the sun is there, but for now the shadow is still overhanging...
When will it go beyond that slight sunlight peeking just over the edge of the cloud?
Someday... but when?

Friday, March 10, 2006

IPM 2006 in the Netherlands

If I were to describe all that happened, it will probably be enough to publish a book. So since pictures speak a thousand words, here are some to share!


Seeing Snow for the 1st time and enjoying it...

The official gala dinner for IPM 2006

The AIESEC Network...

Thursday, January 26, 2006

Before Chinese New Year

Since I have been absent from the blogging scene for quite a long while... more than 3 weeks to be exact... I figured I might as well do a quick update before Chinese New Year...

so yeah.. wat has happened?

Industrial Attachment
I started my 6 months attachment on 16th Jan 2006 in an engineering MNC and I am now known as a Product Design Trainee. (haha) So what I have been doing so far is to familiarise myself with ANOTHER graphics software (this is the 3rd one after ProE and SolidWorks), learning as much as I can about how a company on such a large scale functions (from design to manufacturing to sales and marketing!)

People are nice, the work is ok for now... not too challenging and much yet but I'm not really complaining about that... most important is that people there are keen and open to answering my questions, having me bug them, and offering their small tips and advice...

AIESEC
Super busy with AIESEC stuff... now I feel like an engineer during office hours, and an AIESECer the rest of the remaining time... Lots to do for my current role as VP Learning, lots to do also for my future role as President... Speaking of which, I really want to thank everyone who's given their support in any small way possible... It's really helped!

Taichi
Yup I am still taking Taichi classes, though I haven't attended the training in a while... It's been raining a fair bit this month resulting in class being cancelled... but yeah... still looking at how to move things a bit forward from here...

Doesn't seem like much has happened right? Just 3 categories, simple as that.. but enough to render late nights and exercise for brain cells...

speaking of that, it's time to get back to work...

Happy Chinese New Year!! :)